Interesting Day

Today, I took my first real sick day ever. I haven't called in sick to anything since student teaching, mostly because I just never get sick. For the past two days, though, I've had a migraine worse than any I've had before. I had the mindset of just doing what I need to do and working through it, until about 9:30 this morning, when I realized I needed to lay down and sleep RIGHT NOW. Maybe it was a combination of being overwhelmed by life, quitting a med I was on, and the migraine, but I couldn't get out of school fast enough. I slept for about 5 hours, and now I've used my awake time to get my laundry done and some other stuff that just wasn't going to happen.

Now I find myself with time to check out my blogs and things, which sometimes is rather interesting. I'm not entirely sure how to react to what was written, but I do know that it bugs me, somehow. I think I'm just back to that "wishing I had meant more in the life of a former good friend" state of mind.

Why is it that the only time I ever feel like blogging or journaling is when I'm feeling mopey and over analytical?

Thanksgiving Is Different This Year

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope you're all enjoying your day off of work, and getting some serious relaxing in. Or some serious cooking, which, in my book, is seriously relaxing.

I'm a little weirded out this Thanksgiving, and I worry that this might just be setting the stage for the whole holiday season. This is my first major holiday spent living away from home. I woke up this morning, not to the smell of Polish Sausage sizzling in the kitchen, but to the pain in my head when the sunlight got through my eyelids. There's no football pregame or Macy's parade on the tv, because I don't think to put it on since it's always just been on. No frantic pie making, no turkey to cook, no excitement all over the house to hurry up and get ready so we can wait to leave.

Not that this is all bad. It's just different. I had a great time with the girls last night, eating some yummy snacks, drinking some yummy wine, oohing and aahing over pretty jewelry, and giggling tons. There wasn't much clean up to do this morning, which means that now I get to sit for two hours and find something to do with myself.

How are you spending your Thanksgiving Day??

My Teeth Hurt

Has anyone discovered any good, fast, good for you breakfast foods that aren't sweet? Everything I eat lately in the morning makes my sensitive teeth scream in pain, but breakfast is the most important meal of the day! Do I need to switch to eating pizza and dinner leftovers for my mornign meal? That seems like the wrong way to begin a day. But then again, listening to Ryan Adams seems like the wrong way to begin a day, too, and I'm doing that right now...

I'm So Indecisive

Seriously. I can never seem to make a fully committed decision on anything lately. I've been trying to make the switch from yahoo mail to gmail for years now, and I'm still strangely attached to yahoo. So now I try to compose using gmail, though I still have to check both all the time. I've been considering switching my bog from xanga to blogger for months, but blogger kept eating my posts for awhile, and xanga just seem so user friendly. In both cases, I knew that the alternative was better than what I was doing, but it was just so easy to stay!

But now is the time! Blogger has a beta version, that somehow utilizes gmail, so hopefully this will combine both of my transitions!

So. Here I am. Comment on stuff so I don't feel lonely and need to move away again.

On The Benefits of Jogging

I did it. I said at the end of August that I would jog 25 miles in September. Here it is, September 28th, and I just filled in the last two spaces on my jogging log. It is a wonderful feeling. And I think I'm going to do it again in October.

Why? I used to have the idea i my head that maybe I should jog because it would make me skinnier and more attractive to the opposite sex. That never ended being enough incentive, because I don't care a whole lot about what guys think of me. Well, I do, but I'm not willing to drastically change to fit what they think I should look like.

My main reason for beginning a routine was simply because I felt I should be able to. Eric can do 50, so why can't I do 25? and I did, and I've discovered countless benefits.

• I feel better. Improved mood, fewer headaches, fewer of the regular aches.
• I'm eating better. Most junk food kind of grosses me out these days, and I simply find myself eating less in general.
• I'm sleeping better. I don't usually need quite as much sleep as I used to, I'm waking up better, and sleeping more soundly.
  
• I feel good about myself. Forget what other people think of me, I like how I look. Pants are a little looser, the little black dresses look good, and my calves are tighter than they've ever been.
  
• I'm less stressed. During what could have been a very stressful and emotional time, I found better things to do. Jogging has been a great release, and has helped me to see life in a more calm, rational, pragmatic way.
  
• I'm proud of me. I set a goal, and I accomplished it. No wussing out, no giving up. I did it. I'm using the body that God gave me, and not letting it sit and rot. I'm so blessed to be able to do the things I can, and it seems now like such a waste not to be active.

Drawbacks?

• Jogging does take about an hour, from initial changing of clothes to jogging to cool down to shower to getting presentable again. But what would I be doing in that time otherwise? Napping? Sitting on the couch?
• I've been hitting the Advil a little harder than usual, trying to ease some of the charly horses, shin splints, and muscle cramps that have hit my legs.
  

Really, I feel like a person who's just quit smoking and who wants to tell the whole world why they too should quit smoking. It's wonderful.